Name: Vanishing
Duration: P00H05M32S
Description: Depending on your definition, this is possibly the first song I ever wrote, which might explain why it's the most melodramatic and self-involved track on the EP. It's essentially about self-awareness being the first step towards actually acting with greater care for the people around you, even when it feels totally insufficient in desperate moments.

Vanishing

from Viewfinder EP by Gardening

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Depending on your definition, this is possibly the first song I ever wrote, which might explain why it's the most melodramatic and self-involved track on the EP. It's essentially about self-awareness being the first step towards actually acting with greater care for the people around you, even when it feels totally insufficient in desperate moments.

lyrics

I can only call it self-induced
Like moving on a chain
And falling in a dream
Like pulling on the chain
And bringing it to me

I'm made of different stuff
Can't you see your best is not enough
And I feel blind
And chemically entrenched
I don’t wanna lose it from the bench

All I want to do
Is put myself between myself and you

I can watch the smile drain from your eyes
You can call it what you want to but I know
It's a physical vice

You're reading from the verse
Can't you see your best just makes it worse
And in my mind
I never stand aside
I don't wanna lose without a fight

All I want to do
Is put myself between myself and you
All I want to do
Is put myself between myself and you

credits

from Viewfinder EP, released November 18, 2022

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Gardening London, UK

Anxious guitar-spanking musical project of Niall Rush, a London-based queer dweeb / studio rat

feat. friends, collaborators, and a gnarly live band

discography

Viewfinder EP

Nov 2022
Magpie

Oct 2020
Taste Invader

Apr 2020
Crutch

Sep 2019

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